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Silver Swan


The silver swan, who living had no note, when death approached, unlocked her silent throat; Leaning her breast against the reedy shore, Thus sung her first and last, and sung no more: “Farewell, all joys; Oh death, come close mine eyes; More geese than swans now live, more fools than wise.”



Why do people never realize that respect is a two way street? I’m supposed to respect your time but yet mine isn’t valued at all. I’m not going to blow my kid off for any one and to just throw away an opportunity to spend my free time with me is really insulting. I’m tired of the sweet talk with no action. It tells me this isn’t serious and I’m not going to waste my time on anything casual. I understand taking things slow but it’s been over a month and I’ve yet to be taken on a real date. Yet random ass girls get taken out for dinner. I just don’t understand and I’m not willing to keep putting myself out there only to be pushed away over and over again. I don’t have time for heartbreak and disappointment when I’ve spent the last eight years of my life dealing with it.

Why is it so hard to find someone who will take me seriously? I don’t think it’s ever going to happen and I feel like such a fool for thinking that any guy would be any different from the previous men in my life. I’m just going to give up, I should’ve never let my heart get carried away any way. I wish I could kill all these feelings, they’re only meant to hurt and scar me in the end. Love isn’t supposed to hurt and I will never find someone safe.